Miracles sometimes fall through too....

Our miracle about C heading to Chandler for his RTC stay fell through. I think maybe that's the real miracle. After checking into the AZ one, I just had a funny feeling. When they called me, they didn't seem as professional to me. There wasn't much information on their website, and I began to feel really uneasy. So, after praying with Wayne about it, we went with one of the other ones we felt good about. There were two, one called Cedar Springs in Colorado Springs, and one called Willow Springs in Reno Nevada. We were hoping for Cedar Springs only because it's closer and more convenient. They wouldn't take him. But, Willow Springs was the first place recommended by several doctors. I am impressed with the people I've talked too. They are paying our way out there, cab and all! I know if C can make any changes, this is the place that will help him.




I have to have hope. Despite what everyone is telling us, I still have to remain hopeful. I know my boy has an uphill battle... a very steep hill. But, I'm his biggest cheerleader, and Heavenly Father has a plan. Whether C stays with us or not, it's Heavenly Father's plan. I can live with that.



Despite what happens here on earth, in Heaven, in the eternities, I will be blessed to know all of my children well. Including my baby boy who is slowly losing his mind on earth. I can't wait to know the real him!





So, on Monday, as I fly with C to his new doctors and nurses, and I have to say goodbye for a time, my heart will hurt. I will cry ugly. I will come home to a peaceful house, no tension, no stress, and yet I will still miss him. I guess that's what being a mom is all about. Loving your children despite the pain they cause you.




I feel blessed! I have the privilege of learning so much from these children of mine. Though many tears have been involved in the process, I'm grateful for the lessons that continue to shape who I am. Yes.... I am blessed.